…Letterman's TOP TEN….

“Top Ten Things You Don’t Want To Hear From Your Air Traffic Controller ”

10. “I’m thinking of a runway between one and ten…”

9. “This is just ’til I can go full time at the toll booth”

8. “Say, that’s the flight my ex-wife is on”

7. “I just had the craziest dream”

6. “That’s strange — are you in one plane or two?”

5. “Duh! Winning!”

4. “Can I land, can I land — is that all you people care about?”

3. “I’ll give you your landing instructions in a minute, but first: are you familiar with Amway?”

2. “Your landing is important to us. Please continue circling and the next available air traffic controller will be with you shortly”

1. “You are now entering Libyan air space”

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150th Anniversary of the Civil War

April at the Museum
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Featured Artifact

A secret message inside Abraham Lincoln’s watch?

The news reached watchmaker Jonathan Dillon in Washington, just as he was repairing Abraham Lincoln’s timepiece. On April 12, 1861, Confederate forces had fired on Fort Sumter . . .

Union and Confederate uniforms

Featured Exhibit

The Price of Freedom: Americans at War

Both sides envisioned easy victories after eleven Southern states seceded and war broke out in 1861. But the bitter, ruthless fight lasted four years, and proved to be the nation’s bloodiest and most divisive conflict. Explore Civil War artifacts online or in person.

Smithsonian Council for American History

The Museum is grateful to the following members who recently joined the Council or renewed their membership:

  • Bonnie Englebardt Lautenberg
  • Shirley Loo
  • Jeff and Annie Lowdermilk
  • Fran Morris-Rosman and Richard Rosman
  • Doug and Betsy Stiles

You can become a part of this special group. Find out more.

Song of the Month

Free Song of the Month

“See What You Done Done” by Baby Tate from the Independent Music Award-Nominated Smithsonian Folkways album Classic Appalachian Blues.

Enter code NMAHBABY to save 20% on CDs or downloads of this album through April 30.

Download the song.

See Washington, D.C., as it looked during the Civil War.

Armory hospitalSo Much Need of Service” – The Diary of a Civil War Nurse opens Friday, April 22. This exhibition features the diary, photo albums, and letters of Civil War nurse, Amanda Akin. In April 1863, Akin left her home in Quaker Hill, New York, to serve as a nurse at Armory Square Hospital, where she stayed for 15 months.

A Peek Inside the Conservation of the Jefferson Bible

ConservatorHow do museum professionals define the condition of an artifact, and determine whether it can be used or exhibited without harm? The answer is by very, very careful investigation.

April is Jazz Appreciation Month

Jazz Appreciation MonthThe Smithsonian invites you to celebrate the 10th anniversary of Jazz Appreciation Month with performances, talks, tours and family-oriented events. This year’s programming examines the legacies of women in jazz.

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DailyOM: The Effect of Not Doing

DailyOM – When We Don’t Take Action

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March 30, 2011
The Effect of Not Doing
When We Don’t Take Action Every action taken affects the whole as greatly as every action NOT taken.

Life is sculpted on a moment-to-moment basis. Every one of the thoughts we think, the words we speak, and the actions we take contributes to the complex quality and character of the universe’s unfolding. It simply is not possible to be alive without making an impact on the world that surrounds us. Every action taken affects the whole as greatly as every action not taken. And when it comes to making the world a better place, what we choose not to do can be just as important as what we choose to do.

For example, when we neglect to recycle, speak up, vote, or help somebody in immediate need, we are denying ourselves the opportunity to be an agent for positive change. Instead, we are enabling a particular course to continue unchallenged, picking up speed even as it goes along. By holding the belief that our actions don’t make much of a difference, we may find that we often tend to forego opportunities for involvement. Alternatively, if we see ourselves as important participants in an ever-evolving world, we may feel more inspired to contribute our unique perspective and gifts to a situation.

It is wise to be somewhat selective about how and where we are using our energy in order to keep ourselves from becoming scattered. Not every cause or action is appropriate for every person. When a situation catches our attention, however, and speaks to our heart, it is important that we honor our impulse to help and take the action that feels right for us. It may be offering a kind word to a friend, giving resources to people in need, or just taking responsibility for our own behavior. By doing what we can, when we can, we add positive energy to our world. And sometimes, it may be our one contribution that makes all the difference.

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Things to make you smile….

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…Steve Workman's Funeral…

I discovered our Ball State University choral friend, Steve Workman, and his wife, Connie Ortman Workman, lived in the same community of some dear friends not associated with BSU. In fact, Steve had recently accompanied their daughter at solo & ensemble contest. This was my friend’s note regarding Steve’s funeral.

Darin, just came back from Steve’s funeral. It was beautiful, what a tribute to the man’s life. The church was packed. There were so many snifles and tears, it was the underscore of the service.

He truly touched so many lives. They left one of the altar (officiant) chairs with his vestments on it — for him.

The service was very well done. And Ball State was mentioned a few times, as well as Muncie, Indiana. Of course I thought of you.

Just thought I would share this with you.

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…She called 5 horses…

She called “5 Horses”

This is mythical and deep.
Truly beautiful…

A man asked an American Indian what was his wife’s name.

He replied, “She called Five Horses”.

The man said, “That’s an unusual name for your wife.

What does it mean?”

The Old Indian answered,

“It old Indian Name. It mean…

NAG, NAG, NAG, NAG, NAG

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…Orpheus With His Lute…

Orpheus with his Lute, from Henry VIII
William Shakespeare

Orpheus with his lute, with his lute made trees
And the mountain tops that freeze
Bow themselves when he did sing.
To his music plants and flow’rs
Ever sprung as sun and show’rs
There had made a lasting spring.
Ev’ry thing that heard him play
Ev’n the billows of the sea,
Hung their heads and then lay by,
In sweet music is such art,
Killing care and grief of heart,
Fall asleep, or hearing die,
Fall asleep, or hearing die.

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…Orpheus With His Lute…

Orpheus with his Lute, from Henry VIII,

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…In Search Of Monsters To Destroy…

Written by President John Quincy Adams in 1821:

“Wherever the standard of freedom and Independence has been or shall be unfurled, there will her heart, her benedictions and her prayers be. But she goes not abroad, in search of monsters to destroy. She is the well-wisher to the freedom and independence of all. She is the champion and vindicator only of her own. She will commend the general cause by the countenance of her voice, and the benignant sympathy of her example. She well knows that by once enlisting under other banners than her own, were they even the banners of foreign independence, she would involve herself beyond the power of extrication, in all the wars of interest and intrigue, of individual avarice, envy, and ambition, which assume the colors and usurp the standard of freedom. The fundamental maxims of her policy would insensibly change from liberty to force…. She might become the dictatress of the world. She would be no longer the ruler of her own spirit….”

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…Celebrate Latin…

Whenever my siblings and I get together our familiar stories often return to our school days in Elwood, Indiana, mostly centering around two teachers who seemed to have a great, and lasting impact on our lives beyond Elwood Community High School – Darren Paquin (Advanced Composition) and Diana Garner (Latin).

I began my high school Latin studies in 1979 and Mrs. Diana Garner was just returning from the birth of her first child. A number of us students had Mr. Garner for math in 8th grade, and I honestly do not remember if I elected to take Latin because of his encouragement, or because I thought it might help in music. Regardless, it was a wise, wonderful choice.

Throughout my years in school, I had many teachers who had a great passion for teaching, but it would take a minimum of three teachers to match Mrs. Garner in the classroom. I owe much of my own classroom/studio energy to this teacher’s modeling. And having seen my brother, Destin, who is ten years younger than me, in action as a teacher, I assume he also absorbed Mrs. Garner’s energetic passion for sharing information, history, and life.

My high school Latin classes have served me well since graduating in 1983, and Latin has come in handy in the most unusual places of my career. How funny that a local priest would attend my directed production of THE SOUND OF MUSIC, and hire me to help him and some of his cleric buddies to clean up some of their Latin!

Thanks to Mrs. Garner’s Latin classes I have been able to

  • tutor my own sons in Latin
  • share wonderful stories with my sons and students who also study Latin
  • enjoy college trips to Italy, Greece, Cyprus and Crete
  • explain to countless others why some of the auditorium seats have “backs” at Epidaurus
  • swell with pride when complimented by Italian and Greek tour guides for knowing their culture and history
  • sing Latin correctly!
  • and so much more!

My music students know the history of March 15th, and many have chosen to wear black today.

For me, March 15th, or The Ides of March as it is commonly known, is not about remembering the murder of Julius Caesar, but all about celebrating Latin, and especially, the teacher who made a “Dead Language” come to life, and continue to live nearly thirty years later!

Hail , Magistra Diana Garner! Gratias ago vos pro condita an labefactum in meus vita sic ego can labefactum alius.

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… Religion Quiz…

Several years ago, Rev. Becky Strang suggested a site, Belief.Net, thinking I might like it. I did. With all the SBC email garbage, I relocated the site and signed up again.

I seldom take the quizzes, but this one seemed to strike me as interesting: “What religion are you?” In the box below this title, it reads, “Belief-O-Matic Knows.” I laughed, thinking it was more like one of those carnival gimmicks where you put a quarter into a machine, place your palm on the ball, and presto!

So here is my quizz…. I had to chuckle… loving nature, believing in reincarnation of the spirit, not believing in Satan, and believing more along the lines of Lutherans (grace) placed me in some wild categories.

A Personality quiz about your religious and spiritual beliefs

Your Results

The top score on the list below represents the faith that Belief-O-Matic, in its less than infinite wisdom, thinks most closely matches your beliefs. However, even a score of 100% does not mean that your views are all shared by this faith, or vice versa.

Belief-O-Matic then lists another 26 faiths in order of how much they have in common with your professed beliefs. The higher a faith appears on this list, the more closely it aligns with your thinking.

How did the Belief-O-Matic do?

1. Unitarian Universalism (100%)
2. Liberal Quakers (90%)
3. Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (88%)
4. New Age (83%)
5. Reform Judaism (81%)
6. New Thought (76%)
7. Mahayana Buddhism (73%)
8. Orthodox Judaism (72%)
9. Scientology (66%)
10. Secular Humanism (63%)
11. Sikhism (63%)
12. Baha’i Faith (62%)
13. Jainism (62%)
14. Hinduism (62%)
15. Theravada Buddhism (60%)
16. Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (55%)
17. Taoism (54%)
18. Orthodox Judaism (47%)
19. Islam (41%)
20. Orthodox Quaker (39%)
21. Nontheist (37%)
22. Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (22%)
23. Mainline to Conservative Christian/Protestant (22%)
24. Seventh Day Adventist (16%)
25. Eastern Orthodox (12%)
26. Roman Catholic (12%)
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TOP TEN PEEVES DOGS HAVE ABOUT HUMANS

TOP TEN PEEVES DOGS HAVE ABOUT HUMANS

1
Blaming your farts on me…..
not funny… not funny at all !!!

2
Yelling at me for barking.
I AM A F-R-I-G-G-I-N’ DOG

3
Taking me for a walk, then
not letting me check stuff out!
Exactly whose walk is this anyway?

4
Any trick that involves balancing
food on my nose. Stop it!

5

Any haircut that involves bows or ribbons.
Now you know why we chew your stuff
up when you’re not home.

6
The slight of hand, fake fetch throw.
You fooled a dog! Whooooooo Hoooooooo – what
a proud moment for the top of the food chain.

7
Taking me to the vet for ‘the big snip’, then acting
surprised when I freak out every time we go back!

8
Getting upset when I sniff the crotches of your guests.
Sorry, but I haven’t quite mastered that handshake thing yet.

9
Dog sweaters. Hello ???
Haven’t you noticed the fur?

10

How you act disgusted when I lick myself.
Look, we both know the truth. You’re just jealous.

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TOP TEN PEEVES DOGS HAVE ABOUT HUMANS

TOP TEN PEEVES DOGS HAVE ABOUT HUMANS

‘1’
Blaming your farts on me…..
not funny… not funny at all !!!

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TOP TEN PEEVES DOGS HAVE ABOUT HUMANS

TOP TEN PEEVES DOGS HAVE ABOUT HUMANS

‘1’
Blaming your farts on me…..
not funny… not funny at all !!!

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TOP TEN PEEVES DOGS HAVE ABOUT HUMANS

TOP TEN PEEVES DOGS HAVE ABOUT HUMANS

‘1’
Blaming your farts on me…..
not funny… not funny at all !!!

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…Choose Something Like A Star…

Choose Something Like a Star

by Robert Frost – 1947

O Star (the fairest one in sight),
We grant your loftiness the right
To some obscurity of cloud —
It will not do to say of night,
Since dark is what brings out your light.
Some mystery becomes the proud.
But to be wholly taciturn
In your reserve is not allowed.

Say something to us we can learn
By heart and when alone repeat.
Say something! And it says “I burn.”
But say with what degree of heat.
Talk Fahrenheit, talk Centigrade.
Use language we can comprehend.
Tell us what elements you blend.

It gives us strangely little aid,
But does tell something in the end.
And steadfast as Keats’ Eremite,
Not even stooping from its sphere,
It asks a little of us here.
It asks of us a certain height,
So when at times the mob is swayed
To carry praise or blame too far,
We may choose something like a star
To stay our minds on and be staid.

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…Pets…

Right now, I am seated at my study’s desk with two pups sleeping around my feet, so close my slippers are nearly pulled off. Flyer’s blindness keeps her secluded to the boys’ room, sleeping on one of their beds, and only coming down to go to the restroom or eat. Her visually limited world feels safer upstairs. Despite the pups filling some gap, I do miss Flyer’s companionship that has accompanied me these past ten years. Logan, at almost 17 years, still has energy, and stamina, and is now sleeping on my desk with her chin resting on my forearm as I type. I am sure it must be uncomfortable, but she continues to show her love and devotion.

Chief’s primary pre-occupation is the kitchen table. The little chap finally discovered why Logan was hopping onto the table. She has a constantly filled food bowl! I have always had to set Logan’s food up because Flyer loves to eat it for her. With the cat’s food on a higher location Logan can eat throughout the day as she wishes, and a nibble here and there.

Well, Chief observed Logan hopping up on a chair pulled slightly away from the table, and quickly followed suit. Jose and I pushed the chairs up to the table. Naturally, that did not deter Chief who figured out how to push the chair back on its back two legs to create enough space. Next, Jose and I folded the chairs, stacking them against the wall on either side of the table. One chair went crashing to the floor as Chief attempted to use it as a ladder. When that failed, he decided my old swivel desk chair, which we use at the table for the three of us, would be his best route to Logan’s delicious food. This he has not yet mastered; however, I am sure he will by week’s end as this little lad loves a mission!

Navi… sigh… Navi… I think Navi needs a puppy IEP. She is small, cute, and sweet, but her Friskeys don’t go all the way to the top of the bowl. She is slower than Chief when it comes to picking up new commands, but the potty thing is still beyond her grasp. Still, she is a sweetheart, and often the one cuddled due to her impish features. Though Navi is much smaller than Chief, do not assume that he is the more aggressive one in puppy-play! Navi is the instigator, and the first to whelp when Chief gets a little too rough. She knows how to capture sympathy from everyone!

Like Flyer on her second night with me in November 2001, the pups began sleeping up near my pillow. Now, they are gravitating to the foot of the bed with Logan who must not sleep much for her watchful eye lest one of these little scalawags trespass into her personal space.

The little peeps come to lessons, and remain quite focused. My middle school and high school students, however, are reduced to teeth-chattering idiocy when they see the pups.

Twice a day, Flyer and I have our time together when I take a break from work.

The pups are a good deal of work, but if they are to fit into the Haasienda, behaving and performing as wonderfully as their older siblings, Logan and Flyer, the work’s investment will be worth it. They, too, will learn commands in English, German, and Sign Language, and will grasp the acceptable behaviors when Dad is teaching.

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Puppies, Precipitation, Piano, Percussion

It’s the last Thursday in the month of February. I cannot believe how quickly this month has charged ahead. It has been an eventful month, and an exciting one as well.

As the three of us sat at Bill’s Donuts on this cold, rainy night, enjoying the best sweet-eats in the Miami Valley, I looked at my sons: Jose looking tired and drawn from three hours of percussion rehearsal, and Quintin, sporting a new haircut, and more confident and open since arriving. Quintin has been with us two months since last Sunday (February 20th). The seamless, smooth transition still continues to amaze me. Jose has been with me seven years, and it is neat to see the young man he has become.

Logan, the 17 year old feline member of the family, is still active, energetic, and quite the personality. Flyer, now 10 years old, is beginning to show her age, perhaps more so due to her increasing blindness; however, her intelligence and sweetness still beams brightly.

Perhaps the puppies were a “God wink.” Maybe they chose me – just as Flyer did ten years ago when the tiny creature at play with her much larger siblings looked up to notice me watching her. Maybe I need these two pups more than they need me. The boys will grow, graduate, and move on into their adult lives; the aging pets will one day begin a different journey; and it will just be Dad. Maybe the pups are meant to be creatures of transition.

Their transition has been much like Quintin’s – except for the potty training. The pups fit in with the family, the home, the students, and seem as though they have been here much longer than four days. The study has become their sanctuary, as has a blanket next to my bed. Navi & Chief have merged in with the flow of our entire day, and seem a part of Team Haas. When the front door opens, the pups now beat Flyer to the area, eager to greet whomever enters. They understand that they are to camp out at the kitchen table when we eat, much like paparazzi waiting on celebrities to appear.

Tomorrow begins a long range of weekend activities. Once I finish teaching tomorrow evening, it is on to:

  • ACTION Adoption Services to be a part of a filming activity for a marketing DVD
  • Accompanying SEUSSICAL (the musical) auditions Saturday morning and afternoon
  • Percussion competition at the Nutter Center (running until 9:30pm)
  • Dinner and bowling with the Lockharts
  • Percussion competition Sunday morning and afternoon
  • and always, more puppy training

And now, to Puppies, Precipitation, Piano, Percussion I shall add: Pillow.

Nighters…

Darin L. Jolliffe-Haas

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Elwood Panther Classmates – Gil Carter

Gilbert Michael Carter
Gilbert Michael Carter, 48, Pendleton, passed away Feb. 21, 2011 at his residence after a brief illness.
Gil was born May 29, 1962, to Michael and Ann (Gilman) Carter in Tipton.

Gil graduated in 1980 from Elwood Community High School and later attended Western Michigan University.

He was president of Carter Development Corporation of Elwood.

Gil is survived by his parents, Mike and Ann Carter of Marco Island, Fla.

He was preceded in death by his wife, Kelly (Smith) Carter, who died Dec. 16, 2010 and a brother, Michael C. Carter II, who died Jan. 27, 1989.

Funeral services will be at 10 a.m. Saturday, Feb. 26, 2011 at Dunnichay Funeral Home, with the Rev. Chris Dare of the First United Methodist Church officiating. Entombment will take place in the Elwood City Cemetery.

Friends may call from 5 to 8 p.m. Friday at the funeral home.

Memorials are suggested to the charity of choice.

Darin L. Jolliffe-Haas

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It's A Puppy World

In my defense, I had seriously considered heading to SICSA to discuss the prospects of a younger dog to assist Flyer in her new state of blindness. Someone recommended a younger dog might be great medicine for her.

While driving through the Indiana countryside Sunday afternoon, I continued along Highway 1 taking the little jog just before Farmland. The first farm on the right had this hand-lettered sign: “Free puppies.” I slowed down, studying the sign. Quintin looked at me, smiling. I verbally battled myself and drove on, but not fully accelerating.

“Are you going to go back?”

I looked over at Quintin, who by this time was laughing at my indecision.

The car was turned around in the middle of the road.

In the driveway I was greeted by several hound dogs. I was relieved. I am true fan of the hound. I went to the door and was greeted by the farmer who instructed me to go around back where his daughter would show me to the barn. Quintin and I walked with the Monroe-Central freshman to the barn. I explained to Quintin we would just be looking.

About ten minutes later we returned to the car carrying two puppies. When I looked into the room where the puppies were, it was like looking at baby Flyer! We met the mother who is a Springer Spaniel and shaggy dog mix, very gentle and affectionate. There were twelve puppies born in this litter, and only six remained. I told Quintin to pick out a puppy. He selected the chubbier thirteen week-old puppy who showed much energy. I spied the runt of the litter – a shy, passive little thing who looked terrified. Her size, compared to her siblings, was just like Flyer’s sibling litter. I held her for a few minutes and she was all about kisses and snuggling. The farm girl explained the others were mean to her, and she was afraid she would be injured or killed. That was it.

So, here it is, Tuesday morning. There are two freshly bathed puppies sleeping at my feet. Already they understand the study is my place and they rush ahead when I leave another room, assuming I will head to my desk. While mopping the floors this morning, they sat patiently, investigating my every move. Potty training has been a bit difficult due to all the rain, but I am confident the process will be just fine. I am learning how to juggle their entire training process (commands & potty), and already they each have “sit” mastered. Tomorrow, I will begin a new command.

I must admit, they are adorable!

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…Abraham Lincoln, Born Feb. 12, 1809…

Abraham Lincoln, Born Feb. 12, 1809
by Walt Whitman

To-day, from each and all, a breath of prayer—a pulse of thought,
To memory of Him—to birth of Him.

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…Abraham Lincoln Walks At Midnight…

Abraham Lincoln Walks At Midnight
by Vachel Lindsay

It is portentous, and a thing of state
That here at midnight, in our little town
A mourning figure walks, and will not rest,
Near the old court-house pacing up and down,

Or by his homestead, or in shadowed yards
He lingers where his children used to play,
Or through the market, on the well-worn stones
He stalks until the dawn-stars burn away.

A bronzed, lank man! His suit of ancient black,
A famous high top-hat and plain worn shawl
Make him the quaint great figure that men love,
The prairie-lawyer, master of us all.

He cannot sleep upon his hillside now.
He is among us:— as in times before!
And we who toss and lie awake for long
Breathe deep, and start, to see him pass the door.

His head is bowed. He thinks on men and kings.
Yea, when the sick world cries, how can he sleep?
Too many peasants fight, they know not why,
Too many homesteads in black terror weep.

The sins of all the war-lords burn his heart.
He sees the dreadnaughts scouring every main.
He carries on his shawl-wrapped shoulders now
The bitterness, the folly and the pain.

He cannot rest until a spirit-dawn
Shall come;—the shining hope of Europe free:
The league of sober folk, the Workers’ Earth,
Bringing long peace to Cornland, Alp and Sea.

It breaks his heart that kings must murder still,
That all his hours of travail here for men
Seem yet in vain. And who will bring white peace
That he may sleep upon his hill again?

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..The People, Yes…

The People, Yes
by Carl Sandburg

Lincoln?
He was a mystery in smoke and flags
Saying yes to the smoke, yes to the flags,
Yes to the paradoxes of democracy,
Yes to the hopes of government
Of the people by the people for the people,
No to debauchery of the public mind,
No to personal malice nursed and fed,
Yes to the Constitution when a help,
No to the Constitution when a hindrance
Yes to man as a struggler amid illusions,
Each man fated to answer for himself:
Which of the faiths and illusions of mankind
Must I choose for my own sustaining light
To bring me beyond the present wilderness?

Lincoln? Was he a poet?
And did he write verses?

“I have not willingly planted a thorn
in any man’s bosom.”
I shall do nothing through malice: what
I deal with is too vast for malice.”

Death was in the air.
So was birth.

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…The poetry of Abraham Lincoln…

In the spring of 1846 Abraham Lincoln sent some poetry to his friend, Andrew Johnston, and on September 6 enclosed additional stanzas with his letter. At Lincoln’s request, Johnston published portions of the poetry anonymously in the Quincy, Illinois Whig on May 5, 1847.

Lincoln offered Johnston an explanation of the first poem (“My Childhood Home I See Again”). He made Matthew Gentry the subject of Part II, telling Johnston: “He is three years older than I, and when we were boys we went to school together. He was rather a bright lad, and the son of the rich man of our poor neighborhood.

At the age of nineteen he unaccountably became furiously mad, from which condition he gradually settled down into harmless insanity. When, as I told you in my other letter I visited my old home in the fall of 1844, I found him still lingering in this wretched condition. In my poetizing mood I could not forget the impression his case made upon me.”

My Childhood Home I See Again

[I]

My childhood’s home I see again,
And sadden with the view;
And still, as memory crowds my brain,
There’s pleasure in it too.

O Memory! thou midway world
‘Twixt earth and paradise,
Where things decayed and loved ones lost
In dreamy shadows rise,

And, freed from all that’s earthly vile,
Seem hallowed, pure, and bright,
Like scenes in some enchanted isle
All bathed in liquid light.

As dusky mountains please the eye
When twilight chases day;
As bugle-tones that, passing by,
In distance die away;

As leaving some grand waterfall,
We, lingering, list its roar–
So memory will hallow all
We’ve known, but know no more.

Near twenty years have passed away
Since here I bid farewell
To woods and fields, and scenes of play,
And playmates loved so well.

Where many were, but few remain
Of old familiar things;
But seeing them, to mind again
The lost and absent brings.

The friends I left that parting day,
How changed, as time has sped!
Young childhood grown, strong manhood gray,
And half of all are dead.

I hear the loved survivors tell
How nought from death could save,
Till every sound appears a knell,
And every spot a grave.

I range the fields with pensive tread,
And pace the hollow rooms,
And feel (companion of the dead)
I’m living in the tombs.

[II]

But here’s an object more of dread
Than ought the grave contains–
A human form with reason fled,
While wretched life remains.

Poor Matthew! Once of genius bright,
A fortune-favored child–
Now locked for aye, in mental night,
A haggard mad-man wild.

Poor Matthew! I have ne’er forgot,
When first, with maddened will,
Yourself you maimed, your father fought,
And mother strove to kill;

When terror spread, and neighbors ran,
Your dange’rous strength to bind;
And soon, a howling crazy man
Your limbs were fast confined.

How then you strove and shrieked aloud,
Your bones and sinews bared;
And fiendish on the gazing crowd,
With burning eye-balls glared–

And begged, and swore, and wept and prayed
With maniac laught[ter?] joined–
How fearful were those signs displayed
By pangs that killed thy mind!

And when at length, tho’ drear and long,
Time smoothed thy fiercer woes,
How plaintively thy mournful song
Upon the still night rose.

I’ve heard it oft, as if I dreamed,
Far distant, sweet, and lone–
The funeral dirge, it ever seemed
Of reason dead and gone.

To drink it’s strains, I’ve stole away,
All stealthily and still,
Ere yet the rising God of day
Had streaked the Eastern hill.

Air held his breath; trees, with the spell,
Seemed sorrowing angels round,
Whose swelling tears in dew-drops fell
Upon the listening ground.

But this is past; and nought remains,
That raised thee o’er the brute.
Thy piercing shrieks, and soothing strains,
Are like, forever mute.

Now fare thee well–more thou the cause,
Than subject now of woe.
All mental pangs, by time’s kind laws,
Hast lost the power to know.

O death! Thou awe-inspiring prince,
That keepst the world in fear;
Why dost thos tear more blest ones hence,
And leave him ling’ring here?

The Bear Hunt

A wild-bear chace, didst never see?
Then hast thou lived in vain.
Thy richest bump of glorious glee,
Lies desert in thy brain.

When first my father settled here,
‘Twas then the frontier line:
The panther’s scream, filled night with fear
And bears preyed on the swine.

But wo for Bruin’s short lived fun,
When rose the squealing cry;
Now man and horse, with dog and gun,
For vengeance, at him fly.

A sound of danger strikes his ear;
He gives the breeze a snuff;
Away he bounds, with little fear,
And seeks the tangled rough.

On press his foes, and reach the ground,
Where’s left his half munched meal;
The dogs, in circles, scent around,
And find his fresh made trail.

With instant cry, away they dash,
And men as fast pursue;
O’er logs they leap, through water splash,
And shout the brisk halloo.

Now to elude the eager pack,
Bear shuns the open ground;
Th[r]ough matted vines, he shapes his track
And runs it, round and round.

The tall fleet cur, with deep-mouthed voice,
Now speeds him, as the wind;
While half-grown pup, and short-legged fice,
Are yelping far behind.

And fresh recruits are dropping in
To join the merry corps:
With yelp and yell,–a mingled din–
The woods are in a roar.

And round, and round the chace now goes,
The world’s alive with fun;
Nick Carter’s horse, his rider throws,
And more, Hill drops his gun.

Now sorely pressed, bear glances back,
And lolls his tired tongue;
When as, to force him from his track,
An ambush on him sprung.

Across the glade he sweeps for flight,
And fully is in view.
The dogs, new-fired, by the sight,
Their cry, and speed, renew.

The foremost ones, now reach his rear,
He turns, they dash away;
And circling now, the wrathful bear,
They have him full at bay.

At top of speed, the horse-men come,
All screaming in a row,
“Whoop! Take him Tiger. Seize him Drum.”
Bang,–bang–the rifles go.

And furious now, the dogs he tears,
And crushes in his ire,
Wheels right and left, and upward rears,
With eyes of burning fire.

But leaden death is at his heart,
Vain all the strength he plies.
And, spouting blood from every part,
He reels, and sinks, and dies.

And now a dinsome clamor rose,
‘Bout who should have his skin;
Who first draws blood, each hunter knows,
This prize must always win.

But who did this, and how to trace
What’s true from what’s a lie,
Like lawyers, in a murder case
They stoutly argufy.

Aforesaid fice, of blustering mood,
Behind, and quite forgot,
Just now emerging from the wood,
Arrives upon the spot.

With grinning teeth, and up-turned hair–
Brim full of spunk and wrath,
He growls, and seizes on dead bear,
And shakes for life and death.

And swells as if his skin would tear,
And growls and shakes again;
And swears, as plain as dog can swear,
That he has won the skin.

Conceited whelp! we laugh at thee–
Nor mind, that now a few
Of pompous, two-legged dogs there be,
Conceited quite as you.

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Loving and Living Each Day…

Each day, Jose has 7th period free, so I get to spend time with him each afternoon. It is nice to have this time just to ourselves. Of course, throughout the evening, after he has gotten home from work or percussion ensemble rehearsal, we will have little gab sessions while Quintin practices his band music on guitar.

With Jose in percussion ensemble, I get some one-on-one time with Quintin, and tonight was a great night. After Sophie turned in at 11:00pm, Quintin and I talked for almost 90 minutes. We looked up Fort Defiance, Arizona to see where he was born on the reservation, and he began remembering several things of his childhood. He recalled a town where his “Nally” [grandmother] grew up, and within a few minutes I had located the town which is several hours from Fort Defiance. Then Quintin remembered where he lived a short while in Navajo, New Mexico. We found his old home, the school, and the huge trading post/shopping store.

It is a peculiar thing to call someone your son, yet you have no recollection of his childhood. Yet, Quintin, like Jose, already feels as though he has been my son since birth. Grant it, there are no memories of those typical milestones, but it doesn’t matter. As I once told Jose, “physically, you have not been my son your entire life; however, spiritually, you have always been mine.”

Even Quintin slipped yesterday when he described something he thought I already knew. He caught himself and laughed, “Oh, yeh. I keep forgetting there are some things that happened before you became my dad.”

Two months ago today, February 4th, Jose, Quintin and I were romping along trails through the Petroglyphs, enjoying lunch and shopping in Old Towne Albuquerque, and having a blast at the zoo. Already, two months seems years long passed.

As much as I love time spent with both sons together – sharing jokes and tons of laughter, each of us describing our day, lingering at the dinner table long after our plates have been scraped clean, running errands (and still laughing and cutting up) – I value the time spent individually with Jose and Quintin. I once heard a parent say her life was a balancing act trying to make sure she spent equal amounts of time with her children. I don’t keep track of the amount of time I spend alone with each son. But I do keep track of how time continues to trot forward, often at a pace that is simply not to my liking, constantly reminding me that each moment is precious, sacred, beautiful, and not to be missed.

I learned this from my own mother, and I continue to learn from her as I grow older. I know how dearly she loves spending time with me, and my sons, as well as my brother and his family. It is also obvious how splendid her world is when she has all of us together no matter how limited the time.

These moments as a parent matter more than anything else. If I treasure them so deeply now, I cannot even begin to imagine just how much more wonderful they will be when the boys are all grown with families of their own. One day, I shall sit amidst the laughter and noise of my own enlarged family, treasuring the new moments with my sons and their families.

And, like my grandparents, and Mother, I know I shall begin to treasure those times spent with those who will call me, “Shay” [‘grandfather’ in Navajo], or “Pop.”

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