I have been rather tired after this past weekend, but have managed to do a few chores around the house. I have a contractor coming to do some minor repair, fix-up things, as well as adding a ceiling/vent fan to the bathroom.

Tomorrow I take Jose to the dentist for two root canals. I will probably keep him home the remainder of the day. They are not as bad as pulling a tooth, but it is still something for which he should try to rest afterwards.

I had an Email from a former student in New York, basically asking, “What happens when you feel as though you are falling in love with someone and yet you don’t know how they feel?”

UGH! Is she asking the wrong person. That’s the story of my life! I tend to be the one who never utters a word, or shows any interest. Often times we go our own separate ways, and then I hear, a number of years later, “I had the biggest crush on you!” So, I could not provide any former mentor, or fatherly advice on that particular subject. I always tell myself that I will be brave, have courage to tell the other person how I feel, but then I am always afraid of getting shot down. I just lived through one of these particular events with someone who is also in theatre. We are both very similar in our desires to be private and somewhat reclusive, yet, I felt such a strong connection on so many levels. I always enjoyed being in this person’s presence, which for a while was almost daily, and now that we do not see one another as often, I am still slightly drawn in that direction. The right people who have come along before are always in another state, another country, or in a relationship…

The heart – or what ever it happens to be that rules these episodes in our lives – is so peculiar… I wish I could have answered my former student’s question – but I am still trying to figure out the answer for my self. And, then, your sons come to you with the same question – well, Matthew does. Jose, I am sure has no difficulty in this arena.

Maybe I should take advice from him!